4 Weeks Left! Eff yes!

I'm so fucking happy to report that there are 4 weeks left of this challenge.  Giddy in fact.  I cannot WAIT.  I don't particularly want to take after photos and/or dunk.  Because you see...I feel fucking great about myself right now.  I realize that I do not look physically perfect (loose skin) but without EXTREME diet changes, which I am unwilling to do, this is as good as it gets. 
 

with some fava beans and a nice chi-AN-ti

 I'm tired of obsessing and nitpicking.  I'm done.  I will continue to exercise and eat well but I am done with numbers on the scale, numbers on a tape measure and numbers in a dunk tank.  MY VALUE DOES NOT LIE IN NUMBERS. (I will dunk so as to not let down my teammate in this challenge.  I don't want her to be disqualified).

Day 1

Day 60!  Lmfao NO difference!!

I made the GRAVE mistake of trying to go on a severe, no salt, limited food diet.  BIG FUCKING PROBLEM.  I freaked out and went off the reservation. I should know myself by now.  Whenever I limit food severely, it triggers my eating disorder mentality and I fucking lose my mind.  So I stopped immediately.  I ate what I wanted, I drank what I wanted, I did not count calories, I took 4 days off,  I lost a pound, AND I bought a size 6 skinny jean in WHITE.

I ate food not on a prescribed list....and I regret not one bite.

DIETS DON'T WORK for me.  Life is too short to be miserable.  Why complicate things?  Why fuck with happiness?  I was happy, then I joined this challenge.  Then I started to become unhappy.  NOT the fucking POINT.

Fuckin' A.

 I'm going to end this challenge by doing me.  I LOVE working out.  I like eating healthy food.  I will do that.  I will eat fruit when I want, no matter the time of day, I will make my crockpot chicken chili...with beans, I will enjoy this process by doing it MY way.  

I'm going to do whatever the fuck I want to do.

Let's have fun...starting now!   

I fucking DARE you!

 

Yeah, I gotta take care of that!

Today I will be thinking of my friend Dena, who is in the hospital.  She is the epitome of living out loud.  If you think I'm bold and say the craziest shit, you have never met Dena!  She always says, "When I'm old I'm going to say everything I think."  We all respond, "We are fucking scared of what you are holding back???"

Boom.

Today I will go support my friend at her medical bill fundraiser.  Christy also lives out loud.  She is battling cancer with an amazing attitude!  She is an inspiration and the true definition of a Warrior. She actually inspired me to get fit.  I would read her positive posts and think....this woman is battling for her life.  She has an amazing attitude and YOU are depressed because you are fat?  Stop the fucking insanity.  So we are going to celebrate and raise some cash!

Let's raise some money!!!

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