Day 24 I told you the road would be bumpy.

Word.

This occurred to me at LA Fitness when I was still fat.  On holidays I would be able to go to the 9:15 spin class.  I'd get there at 8:50 and ALL 100 (ish) bikes were taken.  The front 5 rows with exceptionally fit "regulars" who either A) were in college or B) skinny ass stay at home moms.  I'd be like, "Bitches, you don't NEED this shit.  Go ON THE FUCKING TREADMILL AND LEAVE SOME BIKES FOR US FATTIES WHO FUCKING WORK OUTSIDE OF THE HOME AND CAN'T MAKE THE CLASS NORMALLY."

Update on my back.  I'm still stiff and in some pain but just with certain movements.  I was at about 75-80% today.I was able to go to the gym today (NOT class) and was able to do the elliptical and the stair climber.  I was sore after but not in too much pain.  I went to the chiropractor for the second time today and that helped a lot.  Seriously, Pure Wellness on Cinema Dr.  Fucking amaze-balls! 

Best I could do today.

Classes are really focusing on "extreme" workouts...tire flipping and heavy weights paired with running and because the classes are not "set", I have no idea what to expect.  It's a waste of time for me to attend when I don't know whether or not I can or cannot do the workout.  Plus it's embarrassing for me to do "modified" work.  I feel like a fucking pussy.  Pride is a bitch.

So the plan for now is.....do the elliptical, stair climber, and treadmill for cardio.  Add in lighter weights on my own, as my back allows (maybe the weekend).  Do the yoga classes (Sat. and Sun.), and attend my group training sessions.  Annie says she can work around my injuries.  That's the plan.  There are trainers who would understand my limitations at later (afternoon/evening) classes but that is tough to work into my schedule.  I will have to see what I can do. 

It feels like I've had a bad week but it's only been 3 days!  Bahahhahaha!  For the record, I did NOT have wine.

My food has been shit.  I've been eating healthy food but NOT NEARLY ENOUGH.  I have well and truly lost my appetite.  The first few days due to pain.  I just couldn't (didn't want) to get out of bed to eat.  Today I forgot to eat.  FORGOT. TO. EAT?

Right??!!?!? When has this girl EVER uttered those words??  I really did.

I ate breakfast at 11:30

egg white scramble, spinach, crimini mushrooms, hot italian sausage

Then I took my kids to see The Muppet Movie (zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz) and I haven't eaten since.  NOT FUCKING GOOD!

I'm off to make turkey taco meat. It's fast and easy. I'll throw it in a whole wheat tortilla to get more calories and carbs....even though it's evening.  Tomorrow I will set my alarm on my phone to eat.  My goal is not skinny.  My goal is strong and fit.  Not eating enough will NOT get me where I need to be.

I love this mug.  This is how I've been feeling the past few days.  Seriously.

Or the BEST.  It's all about perspective.

I'd fly....and beat the shit out of bad guys!

 Not gonna lie.  I'm feeling really down.  Trying to rally.  Trying to find my happy.  But the real and honest truth is I'm feeling.........fucking shitty.  Tomorrow will be better.  I need to refocus my energy and choose joy.

Peace out, bitchezzzzzzzzzzzzz!  Catch you tomorrow.