I spent all day today thinking that it was Thursday...guess what? It's not.

I have been on the run since 4am.  I just got home.  It's 6:30.  

• gym
• teach
• after school meeting (zzzzzzz-so effing DULL)
• take Declan to his first Warrior class
• grab Declan a sub sandwich
• Dick's sporting goods for shoes, shorts, and boxing gloves
• take Declan to jiu jitsu
• my WONDERFUL husband met me at jiu jitsu and let me come HOME!

I love being home.  I love my bed.  I love sleep.

Just to be clear, I'm not trying to say that my life is harder than anyone else.  I know it's not.  I'm not in an imaginary pissing contest where I piss the furthest with the most majestic arc.  I'm just pointing out that we are ALL busy with many things to do.  Some days are longer than others.  We have so many different people/obligations pulling us in every direction. 

The point?   If you don't carve out time for yourself, it's easy to get lost.  By that I mean, it's easy to lose who you are.  What you need.  What you want.  Your dreams.  Your SELF. 

 I finally found myself again.  At 4:45 in the frickin' morning with a bunch of other crazies and some wonderful trainers.  This may not be you.  Maybe you gave up painting or writing, or sewing.  Maybe you've always wanted to meditate or take up yoga.  I think you DESERVE to find yourself again.  It's not too late.  Think about something you can do for you.  ONLY you.  Not for your husband or wife, not for your kids, not for your job....just you.  You might have to wake up early before everybody is awake or you might just have to stay up a little later to get your ME time.  But just think about it.  All you're losing is sleep.   You could gain SO MUCH MORE.

Breakfast: 3 egg whites, spinach, mushrooms, 2 pieces of turkey bacon, 1 slice of Ezekiel bread.

Snack:  Starbucks greek yogurt berry parfait (waaaaaaaaay too much sugar and too many carbs-I was in a pinch) 

Lunch: chicken, asparagus, brown rice
Snack:  Nuts and crasins
Dinner:  Nothing

I feel like a phat phuck carb dumping ground.  My body is saying HELL NO!  I'm bloated, cranky and out of sorts.  I am sluggish as hell.  Too many carbs and too much sugar today.  Not to mention...that special "lady time" is on the way.  Right now I'm extra tired, emotional, and just plain ridiculous. 

Tomorrow will be better, I won't rush out the door without snacks. AND I WILL DRINK MORE WATER.  Not a great day.  BUT...it could have been a lot worse.

VICTORY of the day:  I didn't eat ONE of those fucking Girl Scout cookies!  Boom!  Like a boss!

I also think it's important to recognize your "food" triggers....if you have them.

Things that made me go bat shit crazy and make me want to eat carbs and drink wine TODAY..

•  a pointless staff meeting
• certain coworkers
• report cards
• STUPID ASS, NEVER ENDING, emmer effing LAUNDRY
• when I see a child in my class pick his/her nose and eat it
• when I see a woman with armpit hair
• Girl. Scout. Cookies.

Things that were GREAT about today.

• my workout
• my class was great
• watching my son at his first Warrior class
• having my hubby relieve me at jiu jitsu
• my bed
• the rain (I LOVE rain)
• my parents (every day I am grateful for them)
• my funny ass friends

 Good night, friends.